[trinigemini]

I think I have to agree with you all....I always thought swinging would be something I would be into...I even used to joke with my fuck buddies that if I ever got married the guy would have to be into swinging. I can't believe I no longer think I can handle it. I also believe it all stems from my own insecurities. Do you think it could be that in general I dont get along well with other women so the thought of allowing one into the most intimate of my moments is unnerving? Allmy closest friends have always been men and even though I have close girlfriends...they tend to act more like guys. My FH has alot of women friends and they all seem so needy and winey to me...always calling him up crying and complaining....puts me off women even more. I have no problem introducing another guy into the picture though....I know its selfish and I would never expect FH to allow me that pleasure while denying him his. Oh we are getting married MArch 3rd, 2007. I know its soon. The only reason I have not let this totally freak me out is because he says we never have to do it....and I am the one who brings it up and brought it up recently as we were looking for honeymoon spots. (I suggested hedonism.....then started freaking when he was actually considering it.) At the same time I got totally turned on that night when we were having sex and he was talking about doing a threesome. I think I am just moving too fast...its my nature...I tend to overthink and overanalyze things way too much way too fast. As soon as a thought pops into my head I automatically take it to the final point and usually the worst possible scenario.