[trinigemini]

I am new to this whole thing. Never really swung before. FH is definitely into it and has done it before. I'm not sure how I will handle certain things and was hoping to get some incite. One of the things I've been thinking about recently is what happens after the swing. I mean how can I kiss my husband knowing he was just kissing another woman or even worse eating her out? (I must tell you that in the past I have refuse to even consider rekindling relationships with someone because they kissed another woman after we broke up....just because I didn't think I would be able to deal with it.) And how am I suppossed to feel knowing my husband was just intimate with someone else? Also how can I feel attractive knowing that I'm not enough for him and that he finds other women attractive enough to fuck? (I always thought that once you find that special someone you don't need anyone else.....I have no problems with him looking at other women but I thought he should only want to sleep with me.) How can he stand to see me fucking other men? Do I mean nothing to him? I want to know how other couples have handled these issues because to me they seem like major issues that could destroy our new marriage. And should I even go through with the wedding knowing that even if we never swing it's what he wants to do? He said we never have to swing If I dont want to ...but should I prevent him from being happy?