[fun4Ds]

We are still trying to deal with this, its not been easy. alot of people have wanted us to let the authorities handle this. we are not ready to risk the exposure.wouldn't that make us the bigger piece of shit in the swinging community? we would like to at least feel good that we can keep the people we have met identities confidential. it sucks. the investigating has been on our own so far. we are thankful to our friends and we are lucky... no... grateful to be alive. we were raped and brain fucked. It hurts on the inside more than we can show on the outside. its probably going to be a while before we get any closure to this in our personal lives. you can only imagine what its like to not have any recollection . it has been an earth shaking kaboom. who would have thought they needed to dope us? thats sick. some days we don't want to contact anyone and some days we want to contact everyone. who do we point the finger at? the couple we met? the bartender who served us? the folks at the party? i guess its my fault. they say time heals all wounds.. we are thinking to send the owners a letter of an apology but apologize for what? were only guessing we were the worst. our current swing partners tell us that if we were an ass at the party it would be way out of our character. i guess we are going to have to take it as a team and put it behind us.somehow take it as a learning experience.