[thor-in-vegas]

hi all!

i am an attatched male (engaged).

i have been reading posts and articles here for the past few days and would like to compliment the regulars here, as you guys have a great group with good advice to lend.

i feel like to describe my whole situation would be long winded and boring, so hopefully, with some questions from you guys, we will all gain some understanding of me. LOL

my "issues" are: (please dont judge me yet; im trying to be open minded)

i am one sided when it comes to the idea of swinging with my fiance'.
meaning that i would love to see her with a girl, or both of us with her, but i cant seem to find any sort of turn on in seeing her with another man.
even having a guy in the room watching us seems to rub me the wrong way.

i know this is not really "swinging", but i hope that you guys might be able to broaden my horizons a bit.
my fiance' has had a few girl/girl experiences in her past, but does not consider herself to be bisexual. (she says she was doing it for the other person)

we watch porn together (we have a great sex life between the two of us)
and she is comfortable with me getting turned on by other women, but when the idea of adding another person has been discussed; she expresses jealousy. "if you're going to do someone else, then so am i."
then she expresses to me that she really doesnt care to be with another man, and that im all she needs.

because of this; i have dropped the subject. its obvious to me that this is something that i want much more than her. she has expressed an interest in the past about bringing in another woman, "for me", but i know its just dirty talk.

the problem? i just cant seem to get the idea out of my head!!!

i am constantly thinking about another woman with us when we are together, and the thought drives me crazy! i do not share these thoughts with her, as we have already discussed it, and i know that she is not ready yet.

i have never, and will never cheat on my girl. she's the one i want to spend my life with, but im beginning to realize that she's not as sexually explorative as she seemed when we got together.

so, that's me in a nutshell, please feel freee to ask me anything. i will not be offended. and, yes, if the answer was forever, "no". i would marry her happily and spend the rest of my life with her.

but in my head...i'd be dreaming.

help?
thor