i can understand your conflict. we went through those same emotions. first i did, then jim did.
and the first time i had sex with another man, i felt such guilt even though my hubby saw it and loved it ...
the thing is to take things slow
maybe you need to do some soft swinging first
some things that dont involve the whole sex thing.
maybe just touching at first, or kissing ...
a little more each time
make sure your = both of your = emotions are ok with it before going to the next step.
jim was actually more jealous the first time i kissed a man for about 10 minutes, than he was when i got f*cked the first time
that seemed to work for us.
jana