Thanks for expressing your feelings, hippiechick!
As far as having a "
taste", well, I have the
taste, let me tell you; but I have also been the one who asked for us to quit the lifestyle because I didn't like the turmoil
Fem D was going through and also what we went through as a couple. Just wasn't worth it. True, we have learned a lot about each other. The sex between us is just as special. (I didn't want the lifestyle
that much). Turns out that she really does want to explore the world of sex, just for sex, but has only recently been able to really feel like she has turned the corner. I really feel that she is ready to go for it without reservation. It's taken 2 years to get to where we are now. Seems like forever to me. We do both feel very differently about what we want from the lifestyle, but for now we are trying our best to let things flow. Of course, every once in awhile I have to get involved and screw things up.
Give yourself time to examine your real deep down feelings. He's giving you an opportunity for you to handle your sex life in a much different way than you had ever planned on. Relish the idea and if your husband loves you he will be happy to just focus on you two. Like I, and others, have said...you must want to do this for yourself, not for your husband. Hopefully he really understands that as well.
Male D