Good advice from all and thanks for taking the time to help us out. OK, well, I have had anal stimulation before but not from my husbands penis. He has put his finger in my butt as we were having regular sex. It felt great. I understand his feelings and I would so much love for it to be his penis in my ass rather than anyone elses but that simply is not possible. Like I said, it is circus big. We have tried getting me really tipsy on Long Island Iced Teas and then he has tried to put it in. I really tried my best and relaxed as best I could but even he gave up and said he was afraid of hurting me. It just doesn't fit. Took me a long time to adjust to him vaginally but we are able to work that out. I do not want to hurt him and I will not. I respect his boundaries/feelings but would really love to try a DP. I think he and I just need to talk a little more. If he cannot deal with it, it will be a dead issue. I don't expect to feel resentful, but without his consent, this is something I will never get to try and it is not something I want to exclude him from I just need him to take the front door while we let Shawn take the back. Well, thanks again to all who responded. He'll be back in town in a short while and maybe onced we're back together this will work it's way out. Bye
